Life is bleak. The world is dark and grey again.

But then again, what do I matter? I’m just an insignificant nobody that nobody cares about. Nobody understands. Nobody knows.

You think you know me. You think you can judge me. Fuck u all.

Mutterings. Doesn’t matter. I never mattered much to anyone before. All they wanted was my body. That aside, I am worthless.

Worthless. A piece of shit. I admit I am. However, I don’t need you to tell me that.

I can do it myself.

I am a piece of shit that’s been called a bitch and a slut.

Do this IQ test. Don't cheat, do it once without any help, use ur brain, tt's it. =D

http://ivos.ivillage.com/assessment/exec/iqindex?o=dcm,iq,iv,el,promo,hl?ice=ivwbiq

Your IQ score is 158.
A person whose IQ score falls in the range of 144-160 is considered to be "gifted".
Your IQ score is based on your scores across 12 distinct aspects of intelligence. Like everyone, you have a unique intellectual makeup, with strengths and weaknesses that affect your methods of understanding, communication and relating to others. According to your results, your greatest intellectual strength is Logic.

MUAHAHAHA I AM SMART! So worship me.

So many things have happened recently.

People in MOP found a GR, Candor, and fostered it over at a member’s house. That was where I placed my wangwang (now Nicky), and that also happens to be where at least four more dogs reside.

Candor, a Jack Russell, a Yorkshire terrier, a Norfolk terrier, a Pomeranian, and a Beagle. Living together in a tiny 3 room flat.

The dogs are very active, and they all jump around at the door whenever their owners come home. Most of the time they’re jumping all over Candor because she’s crippled. The dogs don’t get the attention they deserve.

I voiced this out to members of MOP, but as usual, everyone treats me like an ignorant kid overcome by emotions.

Go figure: nobody ever listens to the 18-yr-old “little girl”, but everyone wants a piece of her. How perverted is mankind?

No, I am not pinpointing the peeps in MOP, but generalizing instead. And if you don't like me generalizing, prove me wrong then.

I am sick of people. Sick of their scheming ways and twisted brains.. I know I am going to get shot for this, so shoot me but that’s how I am feeling now.

I think I’m going crazy. I can actually hear voices in my head now.

Voices in my head. Telling me to jump off the platform in front of the train, to step out in front of the oncoming car, to run amok, screaming wildly and spitting on everyone in sight.

Emotions, each trying to squirm their way out of me so that I scream and shriek, holler and cry. But no, I will not let them win. You will never see me cry.

You will never see my CRY!

Look what I found again?



Went to a dog run at east coast yesterday.











Aren't they sweet? So many dogs there too. Was supposed to meet MOP members but in the end, nobody recognised me. *sigh*

Went to Fish & Co the day before too. Here's something to make your stomach growl.







And here's something to make you hate me even more.



*jazzilicious!*

Hi all, I'm back with more updates.

For starters, I went to a chalet at Sentosa for my sister's 20th birthday.

Photos.

we royal rumbled around in the chalet room.







dun pinch me~





I went for horse riding and rode on this HUGE stallion, which I had to stand upon a chair to get on. After bouncing up and down for 10 minutes, I got off and almost fell to my death because there wasn't any chair to support me.



"Star Of Joy"


On the second day, we went to fort siloso. We passed by the beach and had fun there.





what's that?



all hail queen Eileen! *note: it's pronounced yee-ling, not ai-leen*



memories of fort siloso....



at the quartermasters'..

After which we went to underwater world. No pics because everyone was in a bad mood.

the underwater world included tickets to the dolphin lagoon, where there was a pre-show entertainment of peacocks scavaging for food.



Overall, the chalet was great! Made not so great by three couples (me, my sister and my aunt) quarrelling. My aunt got off light, they reconciled and are now happily frolicking at her boyfriend's house. My sister and her boyfriend broke up. Me and mine broke up too. Now entering a cold war zone where I'm refusing to even speak civially with him.

Interested parties who wish to butt in can message me.

I know more and more of my recent posts are getting confusing because my mind is entering a permenant state of distortion so that everything I write is distorted. Please bear with me.

Oh, and one last picture to warm your hearts..



believe it or not, this was taken at sentosa.